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Mana datang rambut panjang ni??

// July 18th, 2008 // No Comments » // family

Last Monday I went to the airport around midnight to fetch my youngest brother coming back for his summer break. Our parents didn’t know he was coming back that night. Mom has been especially waiting for his kenit to come home. Rindu la tu. Anak bongsu… I can only imagine all sort of food mom will cook for the next 3 months.

One year ago.

Last Monday.

The first thing he asked after sesi salam2 at the airport was “kedai buku bukak lagi tak?”

Kesian… deprived of his favorite past time. I’m sure whenever we go out here, the first thing he’ll look for is a bookstore. And that pc in the middle room will be solely conquered by him, gaming.

Anyway, I saw Olympics advert on tv a few weeks back – so cool la weii….

Missing Ammar

// September 10th, 2007 // No Comments » // family

Ahh the memories of watching Ammar playing endless computer games, ignoring me when I kacau him with pointless questions to get his attention, and looking at him lying down on the sofa in the living room reading books….

He’s gone now. And I’m just the same as the rest of the family, missing him like crazy.

Last Saturday was the day when I had to put myself together to not to cry. I didn’t look at him directly in the eye when talking most of the time. Well there were alot of other people berebut to talk to him that day so I just watched from afar. My baby brother was going away – for 6 years! Alahai hati kakak mana yang tak sebak.

I was doing fine up until the minute they had to go pass the gate to the immigration counter. The last person to hug him was emak. Emak peluk Ammar lama jugak and then she started sobbing. I had to look away or else I would be too. Bergenang la air mata tapi tak menitik coz I diverted my focus to other things eg looking at people around me, looking down at my feet, walking away from the scene. When the group was already down there, everyone headed for the anjung tinjau. Mueh + Otel and me went there too and emak was so excited to see Ammar after he went through the immigration and pounding so hard on the glass wall to get his attention. Ammar finally looked up and waved and I couldn’t take it. I watched to another direction and let emak and the rest have the fun. Emak was still sobbing.

Well after that they waited until the plane took off. I couldn’t. So I went to Burger King instead.

On the way home, Otel told me what happened up in the anjung. Ammar had sent mak his last message right before they took off. Right after Otel finished saying the words, terus menitik air mata. Macam boleh terngiang-ngiang suara dia sebut ucapan terakhir tu. Alahai Ammar… cair hati kaklong macam ni.

Takpela…. belajar rajin-rajin, nanti senang kaklong mintak mc…

Ammar

// March 12th, 2007 // No Comments » // family

Ammar is home again! He’s time with PLKN is now over. Today is when the SPM results will come out.

This morning when we were having breakfast while watching tv, there were lots of messages wishing everybody else good luck. You know the messages they put in the scrolling bar down at the bottom. I didn’t want to make any remarks at all in Ammar’s presence although a while before that I did mention to mak, “Result ari ni kuar kan??”.

I was having breakfast peacefully until abah broke out, reading out out the messages on the tv. He was actually trying to figure out the shothands people do these days – Wat ape tu hrp bjy dlm spm…. stuff like that. Ammar was ignoring all of it and suddenly he hissed, “Ni ape sume cakap pasal spm nih???”, to which I answered, “Ala rilek laaa”.

I remember my feelings when I was facing the same day years ago. I know how it feels especially when you have parents like we do…. hehehehe….. So, I was already late for work and I got up. I walked to my room to get my bag and laptop. Ammar was following me and and then he was standing at my door. He was just standing there and smiling. I know there’s something on his mind right there but I couldn’t figure out what. Did I promise him anything that I haven’t done?? Was I suppose to do something? I was asking him what’s going on repeatedly but he kept on just looking at me back. He was just standing there and making me nervous.

Not until I walked out the front door did he say “Aiiii tak wish ape2 keeeeerrr”. He has this soft spoken voice that melts everyone’s heart. Alahai Ammar… adikku yang sorang ni. Cairla hati kaklong. Bukannya takde niat nak wish, cuma taknak buat hati bertambah gundah gulana je. Lastly I gave him 2 pecks on each cheeks. Insyaallah kalau dah usaha dan tawakal, apa sahaja yang terjadi redha je la dengan rezeki. But you know what, I know it’s going to be good. He’s a smart young man and I’m not worried at all. For all I know, whatever happens he will stay brilliant in our hearts.

UPDATE: Now what did I tell you? 12A with 9A1. Looks like whatever books or how many he’s gonna ask mak to buy, mak will do it without questions. I am overjoyed I can’t tell you how much. Rasa cam nak joget pung ada….hahahaha

Just when you think things can get worse

// January 25th, 2007 // No Comments » // family

I’ve said it before and I say it again.

What can make me smile in an instant?
- The thoughts of my brothers

// November 1st, 2006 // No Comments » // family, personal

Somebody has made me feel really special today. He always has been whenever he’s around me. But tonight is the best. He came around, and at first, had me left speechless. My emotion was all stirred up and became unrecognizable, if that’s possible. Well it’s been a while. It took me quite some time to realize what I had felt was love and happiness.

And to top it off, I finally had my first KFC meal since getting back from Brunei (lazatnyer mak aihh cam 10 tahun tak makan). And I finally got this:

I think the mood now suits very well with this pic. I love my brothers. They make my life 3 times memorable with them in it!