There was one time when we had to stay back for CIMB up until 2am or something. It was nice to see “You can come in by 10 tomorrow” on my phone that night. Also there was a time when I didn’t sleep for 3 days for some major bugs fixing/feature requests but still had to go to work. Of course I didn’t look so well that day and he noticed it. After making asking around the office, he found out why and let me go off early at 3pm.

Come to think about it, if I were to stay awake for some work at my current workplace I don’t think I would do it though. There’s no kind of that flexibility here so why would I want torture myself. Besides, being appreciative is not what they are – on the contrary, they like to take the credits away from you. Sadly, this is how the government works. Why would I lament on this I don’t know. It’s not going to change soon anyway no matter how much I talk about it.

A little appreciation goes a long long way. For me, if I know my work is being recognized I would happily volunteer if there’s a need to stay back. I knew Ganee was observant enough to know the effort I put in that time so I didn’t mind to spend more time on it to get it done. I knew it would be reflected in the bonus. They bought me cakes on my birthday, they treated us to TGI after projects had been completed, they got us to Redang for 3D/2N holiday, the pantry always stocked up with food and we had PS2 to relax in between stresses. 3 days with no sleep? I didn’t mind at all.

Hey I love my job, it’s really easy to make me go the extra mile – be flexible, give laptops/dual screens and treat me like a human being.

OSCC people are really cool, seriously. But MAMPU really is killing us. Usually we would come on top which I believe came from the strength we all share – we know what we do and we respect each other. Yes we have our flaws but let’s not be negative now. We have just won AIPA for MyMeeting, the mood should be happy – other than that, really don’t know what to say on this. I should be happy but then again, for something to win an AIPA, it should be something more. Anyway, they were so happy today that they took pictures among themselves with the trophies they forgot the team who developed it in the first place. I wonder where that RM10k money prize will go. It is definitely interesting to watch and I suspect it would make a good bitching post next time.

My red bag

I love this bag so much. It has been with me wherever I go, be it travelling or shopping or sightseeing. I’ve had it since early this year and it still looks good! Great bag. I believe I’ll still be using it for the next 2, 3 years. I don’t have a lot of bags. At one time I have 3 that I can juggle just for the sake of refreshing the look from time to time.

My other loyal companion is my laptop. I can’t live without it. Enough said.

You know what, speaking of laptops, I remember the times when I was at Lava when all senior or on-site developers were given a laptop each. How convenient it was that I could work anytime from anywhere. Really, for those who already used to having their laptops around, imagine one day in the office without it. Or you’re using pc for one day instead. This is when you will really miss the mobility and the connectivity. Admit it, you’re not alive and ticking without your lappies. Heh. I wonder, with reasonable price of good laptops you can get these days, why on earth companies around the world still stand by the immobile pc. I understand there’s pros and cons but I remember enjoying coding on the sofa, dressed in jeans and cute blouse, legs crossed, because we had wifi around the office and I had my laptop. Whenever I felt like munching on something, there were always snacks, biscuits, maggi, chocolate bars in the pantry. Ok that doesn’t have anything to do with having laptops, but they sound great when paired together right?

Connectivity from anywhere is great. Of course there were countless staying back/on site hours but there was once this huge migration exercise that was done on weekends. Me, Janice and Ganee were involved. We didn’t go to the office, instead we did all the work from home. We didn’t sleep for 2 days and we communicated via Skype throughout. The point is I didn’t have to pick fight with my brothers to use the pc at home and I had all my resources right there in my laptop (as it should be). We didn’t want to go the office coz we knew it’s going to be long exercise, we had to eat, and shower and we prefer working in pyjamas in the comfort of our own homes on weekends ok.

Now I’m not saying if we have laptops we should all be working at home on weekends, or working extra hours. I’m saying in times like this, it’s good to have all this flexibility on your side, made possible by having a laptop. Some people like bringing their job back to home, or maybe at home they came up with an idea, what a bummer it is to have it saved in thumbdrive/cd only to forget bring it the next morning to work. Hey it happens.

Anyway, working extra hours is not healthy. No matter how much you love you job, you should get out and go to the beach or something. In my case, if I get excited over a task I don’t mind spending more time on it on my own. But if it’s like my case above, had to work on a weekend, it’s good if the bosses notice it and appreciate what you’ve done. After the migration, the next day we came to the office, there’s bouquet of flowers on my desk and Janice’s from Ganee with a card saying thanks. Simple but very effective.

Hey I veered off topic. Yea as I was saying, I love my bag and lappie.

My right hand is not feeling steady right now. Tu lah, sampai je terus main, takde nak warm up ke streching2 ke ape ke. Hah amek. Stokin plak lupa nak bawak, nasib baik takde spotcek. Harap takde la kena kudis buta ke ape ke lepas ni.

Bola banyak kali masuk longkang, I feel like it’s actually how bowling should be played (saje nak kasi alasan). Much easier and less stressed wattt (menyokong alasan tadi). The rest of the gang pun, memang laluan longkang adalah laluan utama for all of us tonight (contoh untuk lebih menyokong alasan tadi). But at least I got 1 strike, purely by luck la of course but still I can brag about it later… lalalalala…

Pelbagai lagi alasan yang boleh diberikan seperti bola kena sumpah, lane tidak lurus, terlalu bising hingga hilang fokus, gangguan tidak bertempat dari rakan sepasukan, bola terlepas dari tangan ketika membuat balingan, kasut sewa yang tidak berkualiti, tidak tahu main, tempikan manja dari pasukan berhampiran, the list could go on and on and on… hahahahahahhaa!

In the end, mengah ok. Letih siut main bowling ni rupanya. 3 set je tapi macam buat marathon zaman sekolah dulu (marathon dulu selalu kat belakang ambik angin, but still). Adehhh….

Lepas ni diorang plan nak go bowling kat Mid Valley pulak, semata-mata sebab ada glow in the dark…. hahahahaha.. What’s so attractive about it, I’m never gonna get that. Funny people. Dah la gelap, bertambah la rekod longkang tu karang.

Yang tokey2 kamera ni tak bawak cam plak. Abes citer lah. Kalau tak mesti galak bergambar dengan pokok-pokok krismas (the girls la, usually dengan semangat bergambar dari Adda and Janice)… hohoho…

So just because we had pics taken with christmas trees the other day,…

Beautiful beautiful christmas tree, post TGI @ The Curve. Gantung ketupat ngan lemang ni best nih!

Anyway, terasa nak berlatina la plakkkk…. cewahhhh! Ape itu? Jeng jeng jengggg.

During get together like this (which happens alot aka lunch break), they would talk endlessly about coming projects and big plans and this and that. I can’t take it any longer, feeling so out of place. Even though I’m still here but I feel like an outsider already. Ah so sad. Usually when this happens, I would always think of the rest of my colleagues – in so many different levels, their personality, their good jokes and bad ones, their professionalism and hardwork, they are just the greatest colleagues around.

I still owe Ajeed lasagna. Aiyak that reminds me of grocery shopping – bila plak nak pegi nih. Have to hurry before he goes to Terengganu for that big project. Weh Adda, nanti ada masuk opis sini tak before the 9th? Karang termiss la plak makang2.

Janice ada bawak camera tapi tak bagitau… cehhhh…. Rugi tak amik gambar time makan2.

Am I complaining? No, because there is not enough reasons to complaint about. It’s not everyday. In fact it is actually seasonal. Last time when I had this kind of work was when we were doing Mofaz. That was what, in March? February? Before that it was Sismi (hmmmppphh!).

I’ve accepted the nature of my job and I’ve said it many times before that I love my job. I talk about it alot (just like any other woman – you don’t have to understand what we really saying), but I get my job done. I sound like I’m complaining but actually it’s to get it off my chest. Ridiculously busy and hectic it may be, but I’m loving every minute of it. The best thing is, my managers are excellent. He allowed us to work from home. He gave me and Janice a day off today, since we’ve been working on it like all hell have broken loose. So thank you for being understanding. In fact I should be sleeping right now but I remember about the condition of my blog here (I recently moved to a new host). Somehow in the middle of it all I lost touch with the world around me. Luckily it was only for awhile.

Ok I’m going to hit the sack and fall in a deep deep deep sleeeeeep.

UPDATE: well well well we’ve received this email congratulating everyone for their parts in the project, only it is very sad to look at the mention on LAVA – a mere ‘Special mention to our partners Lava for assistance during migration works’. Excuse me, but an assistance?? We were not on standy, but we were working. Can you make out the difference between the two? We were working our asses off! As in constantly having headaches troubleshooting, skipping meals and not sleeping while at it. We never took our hands off the keyboard. Well excuse me for being so emotional but we did the most part of the work, if not same as your team. This is what happens when credits is not given when it’s due. Sucks big time. You should work more on your complimenting skills… isk panas panas…

And thank god for Ganee. Calms me down. Yeah give him a piece of your mind the next time you see him, that ungrateful over privileged Skali employee.

I can’t wait to get today over with. When the clock strucks 12am, the pain will suddenly stop. Funny lah this biological thing. And it differs from a person to the other. I’m lucky I only have to face this one day from the rest of the period week. Some people can’t even walk and for some, they have to endure for more than 1 day. So you see, an MC per month is quite reasonable don’t you think. Heh!

Anyway, had quite a talk with Ganee yesterday. He’s asked me to give it another thought. I felt so happy when he said that I don’t know why. Maybe because some of the things he said – I feel my work and my presence here is being recognized. It’s like your feelings is being validated if you know what I mean lah. I know we’re all appreciated here but listening to your manager firsthand saying it to you – it is a different experience, entirely.

Different enough to make you rethink your decision.

Anyway, I’m so jealous like hell when I heard my friends’ jobs as lecturers or taking up their master’s/PhD. Aiyak tak tertahan lah kejelesan yang amat membara ni. But you know what, patience is a virtue. With hard work and perseverance I may get the same thing one day.

From left (standing): Bab (brand new dad), Fahmi (manga fan), Malik (taiko), Ganee (sensitive guy), Zul (tokey ebook), Mun (joomla apprentice), Ika (the person behind all the designs) , Syuk (big boss lah)
From left (sitting): Nuhaa (ahem), Adda (crazy rocker chic), Janice (tn tn tn), Ajeed (rosemary)

update: eh bila pulak Gmail upgrade their storage ni?? dulu ada 2GB je skang dah 4.5GB! muahahahahhahah truly Google understands my needs.

We have something big coming our way here and I see lots of prospects. That alone leaves me every night thinking it over and over again.

Motivation is one funny thing. Some get motivated by themselves – they put their own initiatives and they make it work. Some need reminders and constant push from someone/something. Me? I’m both. Now which one will make me a better employee?

*sigh*

I got a call yesterday morning asking me to come in for an interview for another post (but I turned them down). Honestly speaking, I don’t know what to make of this.

I had planned to stay here long. But when circumstances like this comes up, pening pening…

I haven’t talked to Ganee about this but I’m sure he’ll be supportive. Syuk will say something just to let it out of his mind but I know he is supportive as well. These are great managers. They offer advice no matter how small the problem is. I’m not expecting a counter offer because a good company won’t do that. I know what lays ahead for these 2 different directions. At the end of the day I should be asking myself what my objectives in life are.

Looks like a long post. Well I didn’t mean to. It’s just something I need to get off my mind because nobody knows about it.

I need food.

I’m not sure how the charity comes in though. If it’s true, doing the tag will contribute, that’s great. But if it’s not, let’s not get our spirit down shall we. Tags are always fun anyway.

So before I start, I want to tag other people first. Call it spoiling the surprise or unconventional way of doing it, but I don’t care. Better yet, just skip my tag and go do yours. :p The tag is so serious and sober, almost personal. So don’t read mine. Do yours:

1. Adda
2. Blek
3. Tipah
4. Emmachan
5. Hajime (alaaa ape salahnyer blog satu entry :p)
6. Errr… kacap ko nak buat tak?

The rule:
If you are tagged, you need to write an entry related to the meme. At the end of your entry you just need to tag as many person as you like. You will then leave a comment in their blog to let them know they have been tagged. And to include this message, “By doing this meme you are contributing rm127 to the Darul Izzah Orphanage”. The meme is about completing at least seventeen out of twenty seven sentences. Copy the tags here.

1. A person is only as good as
he wants himself to be

2. Friendship is always
about being wrong but never being walked out on

3. To love is to
say “I’ve been wrong and I’m sorry” even though it’s not your fault

4. Money makes me
happy!!!

5. I miss
the smell of fresh cut grass in the morning and the ocean breeze blowing in the window of a hotel room where I’m staying for the weekend

6. My way of saying I care is by
doing the extra little things that people usually tend to not notice

7. I try to spread love and happiness by
spending on gifts and cards for ____

8. Pick the flowers when
you feel like it – don’t force yourself to do something you don’t enjoy

9. To love someone is to
give it your everything to make it work

10. Beauty is
when a woman finds out that she’s pregnant OR when fathers playing with ther kids

11. When I was thirteen, what I remember the most was
how a big deal it was to get an entry to a boarding school

12. When I was twenty one, I remember
turning 21 and treating myself a good meal

13. I am most happy when
my family is doing well and when I have a shoulder to cry on and when I have a career

14. Nothing makes me happier than
falling in love

15. If I can change one thing, I will change
everything about my former high school – the teachers, the headmaster

16. If smiles were balloons
then I’d blow a whole lot of them and tell the wind to send it to my friends anywhere in the world

17. Wouldn’t it be nice if we could
have world peace

18. If you want to –
then you have to –

19. Money is not everything but
it guarantees you the best of education for your kids

20. The most touching moments I have experienced is
my ex driving through bad traffic all the way to Penang to meet me and my family, and facing the same traffic all the way back the next day

21. I smile when
I think of my brothers

22. When I am happy, I
usually hide it and feeling embarrased afterwards had anybody seen me (only applies to non-family male existence)

23. If only I don’t have to –
then –

24. The best thing I did yesterday was
nothing – in fact I had a bad day with Ganee kept on finding bugs in my module – how could I be so rookie-ish??

25. If I ever write a book, I will give it this title,
“Love at first sight?: It’s rubbish.” OR
“How to find the perfect gentleman: Where they are and How to make they react to the sensual you.”

26. One thing I must do before I die is
to have a home

27. Doing this meme, I feel like
having a cup of hot sweeeeeeet tea

Ok so Adda and I went to the office for some briefing from Ganee n Syuk today. Before that, thousand apologies to Adda sebab kena tunggu sejam lebih. Sesungguhnya aku tak sengaja. Kalau bukan bulan posa aku dah belanja ko makan sushi ok bebeh walaupon aku tak makan lelehan daging-daging mentah itu sume… heheheh…

After what could have seemed like hours, we finally got out and headed for Sogo. The goal was to look out (or maybe purchase *ahem*) for a backpack for the notebook. I have the carry case but I like my hands to be free picking and vandalizing other things while walking so…

Well I got one in the end (no surprise there). Okay pick I guess. Because of the price tag only I’ve planned to use it for another 10 years or so. Heh! Good investment should pay you back right. No, make that a hefty investment. So I’m hoping it will pay me back. I demand it.

Oh I forgot. I was told today that a letter of confirmation will come my way soon. That’s a good news. About time too since they send me to Brunei while I’m still on probation. Also I’ll get a raise of RM200. A very good news.

Came back home later today stuck in the traffic. You know how it is around 5-6pm here during Ramadhan riiiiiiight. Frustrating. That and one in a lifetime experiece that took place today, only that it’s more silly and memorable other than frustrating. Too bad Siti wasn’t around to share it with. HAHAHAHA (boley tak aku gelak dulu???)

I mean you CAN get carried away with meaningful conversations aka gossips even with your stomach growling, begging for food and still miss your stop.