Posts Tagged ‘lament’

What’s been keeping me busy

// October 19th, 2009 // No Comments » // lament

1. MIT http://www.ukm.my/kembangan
2. MyGOSSCON http://mygosscon.oscc.org.my
3. MyMeeting http://trac.oscc.org.my/mymeeting
4. FOSS.my http://foss.my
5. OSDC.my http://osdc.my
6. Ubuntu-MY http://www.ubuntu.com.my
7. FOSSchix.my http://fosschix.my
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I am a quiet person

// February 26th, 2009 // 3 Comments » // life

And a very private one too. Believe it or not, I was a class clown when I was 13 for that odd 6 months of my life. I moved on after that realizing there was no fun in it. Sure I had lots of friends and it was fun in a way that I had alot of people to talk to when I felt like it but real friends was what I was looking for. Besides, I wasn’t being myself.

I have this one thing about me that bothers me alot. Sometimes it can a be a nuisance, but probably a virtue in some other different circumstances. But still it bothers me. I can be very direct with my words. Now, old friends know this very well and they put up with me everytime (I hope), which I’m very grateful for. New friends on the other hand are very hard to tackle. Usually I end up being quiet as to restrain myself from saying stuff that might hurt other people’s feelings. Or sometimes, the words escape my mouth halfway but then I stop and making up other words to finish the sentence that don’t make sense and I get these faces staring back at me. To make things worse is my natural tone of voice. If I don’t hold eye contact while conversing I swear the person I talk to would think I was mad at them for something. But like I said before, this isn’t the case with old friends.

Ok now I sound like I scold people for a living… heh!

Of government standards

// November 1st, 2008 // 2 Comments » // work

This week really made me cringe.

If you’re suppose to do a presentation, why would you ask someone else to prepare the slides for you? You’re the big boss and because of that you’re being kept busy all the time (which is fine), but since you’re up there I assume you’re good at managing your resources. You’re at managerial level for crying out loud.

I don’t understand, don’t you feel incompetent now that you have to rely on your staff to save your life? Don’t you care enough to get to know the subject you’re going to present to do the slides yourself?

I had to do notes for the slides you’re going to present. I was so dumbfounded at first as why would you need notes when the slides are full of text you can just read off them. I thought you need some guidance on technical aspects of it, and I had no problem with that, I can try to help out whenever I can. After all, you’re like my boss anyway and some notes should do it. But suddenly I found out from my actual boss that you need a speech text for your slides. WTF?

You’re going to read for a presentation??

For someone who’s from MAMPU, it’s a laughing matter. Some people would just roll their eyes in disbelief. Doing slides for them is no longer taboo actually, but speech-like notes? Knocked me off my feet, in a very bad way.

And since such a long time I want to blog about this: there are so many ranks in the public sector that I think they all are doing the same job, it’s just a matter who gets the respect, the red carpet and all the glory. This is where open source community stands out, the right people who actually do the work gets the credit. Not some people sitting comfortably in a big room waiting for their asses to be served.

This is a personal blog

// April 20th, 2008 // No Comments » // personal

When it becomes very public like it is now I don’t feel free to write anymore. So sad =(

Maybe I should just post pointless pics and brag. I guess the people who know me better through here, it’s the end of it people. You may catch the glimpse in ever shady words I’m going to use from this point on but sorry, that’s the best I can give right now.

The days where I speak up without borders and beyond reason is ending. You people should know by now that I can easily get misunderstood. Take a look at my face for an example. My default face looks like I’m having the most complex programming problems in the world but what is going on in my head and what is reflected on my face may not the same thing. I may be trying to get some cover from the sun and some would think I just had a heart attack. Another example is my tone of voice – I can be easily taken as being mad. So my writing here can cause so much more damage than I ever intend it to be. Maybe I’m not good with arranging words, maybe I’m just plain direct in writing. Maybe I’m just problematic in getting my message across.

But, who the hell cares.

So I take my words back and let’s party on. *lap dance*

Cough

// February 3rd, 2008 // No Comments » // personal

The last time I had a cough was when I was in Brunei. It was such a terrible experience since I had never had it so bad like that. Nothing worked. Went to see different doctors but both didn’t have the effect I want. The cough just wouldn’t seized. And then I found out about ubat batuk cap ibu dan anak and instantly addicted to it. What can I say. The effect was immediate. It didn’t taste like medicine. And it put me off to sleep just like that. Hey I was in such horrible situation where my throat hurt like hell everytime I coughed. So relying on such drug was more than I could cope.

And now I have a cough and I strongly believe I got it from my dear housemates (lalalala). And it doesn’t come alone does it. Along with it, come flu and fever. Now that fever has been taken care of, I’m left with flu and cough. Luckily it’s not as bad as Brunei but nevertheless it’s annoying. Having liquid in my nose is never a comfortable thing, and it has become a very efficient dust radar. I sneeze everytime I’m near it. It’s tiring ler. Not to mention every morning I wake up with throat so sore I’m afraid to speak.

You know, when I was a teenager it wasn’t that easy for me to get sick. But when I got sick it sure be a bad one. Why is it that when I was younger I only got sick like once or twice a year but when I’m all grown up possibility of getting a fever is next to getting my car serviced every 3 month period! Is it because I’m getting older? Aiya I’m still young lah.

Makes me wonder how is it going to be when I’m 30. Hmm…