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I think I’ve lost weight

// March 24th, 2009 // 4 Comments » // personal

My jeans and pants now are all longgar ok. No I’m not happy with that. I want to stay fat.

Urgh the pain

// November 6th, 2007 // No Comments » // work

Waking up with your abdomen feels like it’s trying to stretch a mile apart, sakit laaaa. Ah the ‘privilege’ of being a woman. Usually I like it when it rains when I wake up. But this time it’s different because the colder it gets the crazier it gets ok. Sakit sakit sakit! Huh.

I can’t wait to get today over with. When the clock strucks 12am, the pain will suddenly stop. Funny lah this biological thing. And it differs from a person to the other. I’m lucky I only have to face this one day from the rest of the period week. Some people can’t even walk and for some, they have to endure for more than 1 day. So you see, an MC per month is quite reasonable don’t you think. Heh!

Anyway, had quite a talk with Ganee yesterday. He’s asked me to give it another thought. I felt so happy when he said that I don’t know why. Maybe because some of the things he said – I feel my work and my presence here is being recognized. It’s like your feelings is being validated if you know what I mean lah. I know we’re all appreciated here but listening to your manager firsthand saying it to you – it is a different experience, entirely.

Different enough to make you rethink your decision.

Bayar la woi

// September 22nd, 2007 // No Comments » // personal

Just saw the news on tv about these reluctant PTPTN-aided students. They’re are going to make it mandatory on 2010 to bayar balik through potongan gaji.

Ni tak puas ati ni. I don’t like people intruding my payslips ok. I prefer setting up my own standing instructions online (like I do now) where I can see the transaction details anytime I want. Or cancel anything in an instant. That way I feel I’m in control of my own money. Of course I’m not going to cancel my monthly PTPTN contributions – I have a right mind. But look at what you self centered jerks have done to my life. And I’m not going to be nice about it now.

As far as I know, if you can afford to your ciggie packs or new set of cosmetics every other week, you sure can afford to pay back your loan. How hard can it be? My money rule is simple, you set aside an amount for your parents. Then with the balance you pay all you bills due lah including your PTPTN. After that take some for your savings. The balance, do whatever you like lah.

What you think you can run away from paying bills ke? You think one day it’s just going to magically dissappear and you can enjoy everything free? Hello la brader wake up. There’s no way you can run away from your responsibilities. Sikit punya baik govemen tolong you earn your degree, and now you’re earning good money, is being grateful so hard to do? If you’re muslims and not paying back – what a shame. Ingat la skettt even orang mati syahid pun tak lepas kalau hutang tak abes bayar wehh.

I’m not trying to potray myself in a good light here. I’m just so angry with these people, who has no virtue at all. One thing is if you don’t pay, the amount will add up la because of the monthly interest. Second thing is, one of the reason they’re stopping to convert loans to scholarships for top scorers is because you meat heads won’t pay back. Ape jenis hati you people posses hah? Di buatnya someday your kids tak dapat loan and you don’t have money to send them to university, hah time tu baru nak melompat.

And then there’s these people who live a lifestyle far more extravagant than what they can afford. Stop living in fantasy lah, step up and stop acting like a spoilt teenager. Do you really need that sport rim? Do you really need that extra heels? Do you really need to expand your already big wardrobe? Bayar loan dulu. Kalau ada duit lebih, aa suka ati la nak wardrobe besar mana pun.

Hisyyy!

Like I said I don’t like people intruding my payslips. In 2010 I may have to oblige. Kalau ye pun takde duit, susah sangat ke nak bayar at least RM50 tiap bulan. At least bayar tiap bulan whatever the amount. Don’t give me that takde duit talk ok. Excuses. Excuses. Excuses. Where there is a will, there is a way.

I’m so mad

// August 12th, 2007 // No Comments » // work

*mode tarik tarik rambut*

Stupid sismi. Lalalalala. My car is officially dirty for 3 weeks now. What a sense of accomplishment I’m telling you. I think I’ll wash it tomorrow but only god knows when sismi is going to ever end. One damned project I tell you. The big heads don’t know how to manage, now we’re on the other end receiving all the blame. Well excuse me if I’m all hatred-y, get a mirror, and see what’s been sticking in and out your ass.

Huh.

I don’t see myself being up from this chair tonight all the way till morning. I’ve been here since last night. And at 8am I have to be online to do some testing on TN server relocation. Aiyoh. Sudahlah satu assistant ditarik semula ke Mofaz, I have to do everything on my own now. The deadline is actually today but who cares anymore. With the stupid line being so unbelievablye freakin slow. Slower than anything that has ever existed on this planet. I could take a nap inbetween page load. Stupid website making my hair all oily. This is all so stupid. Terasa seperti berada di zaman purba where people still use kapur to write on cave walls ok. Or I could have finished it all by now and help Adda out dammit.

On a bright note, I think my kidney is ok. It has been really good, showing no sign of stress at all even though I’m all under that pile of work.

// May 4th, 2007 // No Comments » // family, personal

So I haven’t really slept last night and what am I doing still up at this time??? I just got back from work. I don’t feel so good about myself today.

I found out today that I can be irritating if I truly lack some sleep. I didn’t think much before speaking up. Walking around like zombie, forcing food into your mouth just because I felt too tired to chew anything. Let alone swallow. Was pushing any strength I had today at work just to look at the screen. With eyelids half open like that I’m not sure what kept me going.

Was about going to bed when Joe called. This guy is really something. He’s not actually what I expected. Well I’m not saying anything right now coz I know it’s not going to be easy. Why can’t I have kindhearted mautured malaysian man to talk to everyday??? I wonder. It’d be sooo much easier, with the talking, coming from the same roots. Easier to get the approval nods too from mak and abah. But then again I know I’m wasting time writing about this here coz I know there’ll be no man will answer to my plead. Oh well. Some country.

I don’t know why is this happening to me, of all of other girls. I wasn’t really looking, you know. But maybe you can say some things come to you when you least expecting it. I’m really taken aback by this I can tell you that much. Now I wish I have a normal relationship with a normal malaysian man just for the sake of not making things complicated….

Anyway, I’m going to Redang tomorrow night. Now we’re talking. Wooohooo!!!!!

In the mooooodsss of pixxxx people.

The men in my life.